Hello!!!

I was going to have my first letter to you all be my origin story... and for the life of me I have no desire to do that.

Thankfully so far all of you subscribers are my friends and family, so I think I can get away with it....Hee hee.

And now as I sit here in my living room, my aloha protein bar in hand, unshowered, in a t-shirt I've worn the past three days in a row, the feeling arises: the feeling there is something I should do or need to do, and all I want to do is something else. *References the $40 worth of Pokemon cards she bought last week and organized in binders instead of writing this email*

Now of course things have to get done, right? We have bills to pay, jobs to go to, dogs to walk, friends to see, paper towels to buy at Costco...and I don’t think it’s about not doing those things. There will be times that we have to push ourselves a bit past what we are able! Like eventually I’ll have to get a shower drain cover because I can’t look my property manager in the face again and say the drain is clogged because I didn’t get one when I said I would (sorry Maria).

I think the goal isn’t to never push yourself. It's about asking myself: Is this something I need to push through right now? With this level of urgency? Or can I take five minutes to lie down? Or a moment to shut my eyes? Eat a cucumber with hummus? Work on another project? Allow myself to go in a different direction; one that maybe feels more fun, restful, and/or something I’m just curious about. And maybe that in itself is important information: the thing that is present now rather than the thing I think I should be doing.

And then maybe I will get that thing done after the cucumber! And maybe I won’t. I might have to look Maria in the eyes and say "Water is coming up to my ankles whenever I shower please help you're the greatest!!" and then still not buy a freakin shower drain cover.

Or maybe the next time I'm playing Nintendo Gambecube's classic game The Legend of Zelda: The Wind Waker I’ll finally realize “Oh, wait, I’ve been trying to complete this 30 hour long journey in one day….maybe all I need to do is get my sword from the old man in my hometown and then go up the mountain to save the strange lady who was dropped by a bird from the sky and call it a day.”

What I mean is, maybe I just need to do one smaller thing, make it more digestible, and that is enough :)

Thank you!

YAY, writing this was much more fun!!​
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I want to thank you all so much for subscribing and supporting me. It means so much, and I’m really thrilled to be connecting with you all in this new way.
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And maybe one day you’ll all know my true origin story….mwahaha.
(Shhh don't say anything yet Mom and Dad!)